I just returned from presenting at the BEDA conference in Bethesda, Maryland. For those of you who are unfamiliar with BEDA, it is the Binge Eating Disorders Association and was founded by Chevese Turner in June, 2008 with the organization’s vision being: Read More BEDAzzled!

The Circle Game*

And the seasons they go round and round”¦

As Spring approaches, I find myself thinking about the cyclical nature of life. This isn’t very deep or profound; the circular pattern of the seasons is a topic of contemplation, poetry, and prose with a long history. Depending on my frame of mind, this repetition, or redundancy can trigger feelings of despair, stagnancy, being stuck in patterns that just won’t move… just won’t budge. Considering that Spring is supposed to be about new beginnings, Spring cleaning and fresh starts, adds additional pressure to someone, like myself, trying to be patient with incremental change. Read More The Circle Game*

Mixed Nuts

Like a can of mixed nuts! That’s how I feel about Valentine’s Day. When I was growing up, those cans of Planter’s Mixed Nuts® would magically appear once or twice a year in the living room. At first glance, they looked like the regular dark blue can of roasted salted peanuts, easy for me to ignore, peanuts were never my “fave.” (Why I love peanut butter but can live in the same house with a can of roasted salted peanuts without any temptation for noshing on them still mystifies me). But this can, upon closer inspection, was the bonus can of “Mixed Nuts.” If I was lucky to get to the can before my dad, there may be some filberts left. I LOVED the filberts. If I got there before my sister, I could still “score” some pecans. But the true treasures for me were the cashews. Even rarer was finding a cashew in its entirety and not just a chip of the crescent or a split half; but the full cashew. Read More Mixed Nuts

Five Card Draw

Writing a blog about size acceptance, size diversity, and struggling with feelings about food, weight, and body image is like leaving your house to mail a letter and finding yourself taking unexpected detours along the way. Eventually the letter gets mailed but what could have been a five-minute walk around the block frequently turns in to a three-hour tour.

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How Cosplay Helped My Body Image

[TRIGGER WARNING: Eating disorders and related thinking and behaviors.]

If you had asked me three years ago to put on a skintight leotard and a pair of tights and then go to an event with thousands of other people, I’m not sure if I’d have laughed at you or thought you were playing some sort of cruel joke on me. I sure as hell wouldn’t have believed you if you told me that three years down the road it would be one of my favorite ways to spend my time. Read More How Cosplay Helped My Body Image

Bizarre BiZara

[Trigger Warning: Fashion absurdity discussed. Some talk about obesity.]

A loyal reader of my blog contacted me this morning and was clearly fired up! “You have to see this Dr. Deah, it was on Good Morning America. Oooh, this really got to me!” She described the segment by Juju Chang and, with curiosity piqued and deflector shields up, I crossed over enemy lines into a place where I rarely venture”¦and here is what I found. Read More Bizarre BiZara