It seemed insensitive to tack on a bunch of miscellaneous stories at the end of my #BlackLivesMatter news post, so here’s a short roundup of some other stories I found interesting this week.
My husband never gave much thought to it – sounds had colors and shapes, objects were masculine or feminine. Wasn’t that just something everyone felt? It wasn’t until he was an adult and happened upon information that told him, No, your experience is not universal. His brain happens to be wired a bit differently and experiences a condition called synesthesia. Synesthesia is commonly defined as a neurological condition “in which stimulation of one sensory or cognitive pathway leads to automatic, involuntary experiences in a second sensory or cognitive pathway.” That’s a rather simple description, as there are many different varieties of the condition, and it’s only been recently that scientists have rededicated themselves to studying it.
The other day, my mother ended up having to rush out to pick people up and wasn’t going to be able to put together her pumpkin stuff. Looking for something to do, I spied the canned pumpkin. Now, I’ve never made pumpkin pie before. But knowing that those cans of potential deliciousness might go back into the cupboard? I knew I had to do something! Read More Crosspost: Pumpkin Pie and Pumpkin Custard!
If you’re a long-time reader of Persephone, or you’re interested in weird and wonky goings on in the human brain, you may have read the article I wrote back in February about being a synesthete (which you can find here). I was ecstatic to find that so many people were interested in my “brain disorder” and how many of you actually discovered that you, too, had synesthesia, after reading my piece.
Good Morning, Good Morning Persephoneers!
Welcome to day two of the new format; starting this week the Daily Goodie doubles as an all-day open thread, and new content starts at noon.
Today’s a big day here at Persephone headquarters – our own Teri Floyd is being cross posted at MSNBC this morning. If you haven’t read her very informative and descriptive article on synesthesia, you should go read it.
Happy Tuesday, everyone! Raise your hand if you have candy left from yesterday “¦
We’re packing up for the night so we can run the vacuum and hide the beer cans before morning. Why, you ask? Our very own Teri’s post on synesthesia is being crossposted on MSNBC’s Body Odd blog first thing tomorrow morning! YAY TERI! *UPDATE* That piece is now going to be running on Tuesday the 16th instead of tomorrow. Read More Wednesday Night Open Thread!
In my head, the letter N is green. The number 5 is blackish gray, and in his early 20s. The month of February is lavender colored and covered in ice.
So in case you haven’t guessed, I have synesthesia.
I’ve had it all my life, I suppose. People who are experts on such things say that we are born with it, that it is a brain disorder. The wires in your brain get crossed, and you experience all five senses simultaneously. They overlap where they should be separate.
Everybody who has it has a different form of synesthesia with minor undertones of other kinds. Mine mainly exists with letters and numbers. I see numbers, letters, words, etc in color. All of my letters and numbers have different colors, personalities, textures, ages and gender. I literally see them as living beings. Colors themselves also have gender. When I was a child often I’d play ‘house’ with my crayons instead of dolls. Seriously, I’d have red and blue get married or green and orange have a sordid affair. My Grandma used to think it was so funny. It was just normal to me. Words have colors – for instance, my son’s name, Callum, is a bright, sunny yellow with flecks of baby blue, particularly in the L’s.
The inside of my head kind of feels like a Jackson Pollock painting. All splotches and globs of brightly colored paint, roads leading nowhere, just an explosion of thick, goopy color with a nonsensical message. Convergence, 1952 by Jackson Pollock is my favorite painting. Probably because it’s the colors of my name. Yellows, a hint of orange, lots of black, and a little fleck of blue peaking out; all of it streaked into oblivion. My name looks just like that; it did long before I ever saw a Pollock painting.
I also have synesthesia with regard to music. Certain songs bring vivid colors into my head. If I listen to ‘Happiness is a Warm Gun’, by the Beatles, my head fills with alternating flashes of mustard-yellow and bright, silvery white. It has a distinct pulse and a gritty, sandpapery feel. David Bowie’s voice always invokes a bright sky blue that sometimes turns darker, or has shades of gray, depending on the mood of the song. Rap music invokes a kaleidoscope of colors and shapes all spiralling through my head at warp speed. I prefer one sole theme, which is why I think I don’t usually care for rap music unless it’s really unique or exceptional (for instance, Lil Wayne’s voice is a silvery gray with purple undertones that I find really pleasing). Classical music takes me through a landscape of color, shape and feeling. Usually I close my eyes when listening. It’s like having my own personal DVD of Fantasia playing through my head whenever I listen.
Usually when I tell people about my synesthestic experiences they look at me like I’m some crazed hippie. I probably am a crazed hippie in reality, but what I experience is more than just psychadelic. It’s spiritual. My synesthesia is so ingrained into me that if I lost my ability tomorrow, I would feel as if I’d been blinded or deafened.
Occasionally I experience the other types of synesthesia that have to do with taste, sensation and smell, but only occasionally. Smells and tastes definitely invoke a distinct color in my brain. For instance, the smell and taste of fresh garlic makes my head fill with bright, vibrant green. Diet drinks with their saccharine sweetness always appear in my head as being a shimmering, blinding silver.
It can be strange, having synesthesia. If I’m out to dinner with a friend, and they scrape their fork on their teeth, my brain fills with unnamed metallic colors, and my ears roar with the sound of it. I can’t stand it. I can taste the metal on my own tongue and it is unbearable. It can cause obsessive compulsive behavior sometimes. Occasionally the sound and taste of silverware is so loud in my brain that I have to use plastic cutlery when I eat.
Synesthesia certainly enriches my life as an avid reader and a writer. It always helped my poetry and as I become better at essays and stories I find that it enriches them, too. Certainly F. Scott Fitzgerald was synesthetic. No-one can read The Great Gatsby and tell me that he wasn’t. I think that is why I feel so decadent and wistful when I read his books. I’ve read Gatsby dozens of times and never tire of the language and the way his words flow in an endless barrage of color. Many artists and celebrities are synesthestes, including Tori Amos, Eddie Van Halen, Frederick Nietzche, Stevie Wonder, Vladimir Nabokov, and many, many others.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t grateful to have synesthesia. I have had it so long that it is like second nature to me now. I often forget that I do have it, and just go through life assuming that people are experiencing the same sensations as I do. I see the months of the year like a giant rolodex, spiralling through an open space. They all have colors, genders, ages and personalities. I also benefit from having a somewhat photographic memory with directions, phone numbers, addresses and names, because I see them as a pattern of colors.
It all tastes blue to me.
Picture Credit: Convergence, 1952 by Jackson Pollock